I began my journey into Tarot with a traditional Rider-Waite-Smith deck, you all know the one, the one with the infamous checked card back. It was sooooo traditional that it was from, like, the 70’s–it didn’t have a glossy finish. It felt like paper and didn’t have the dreaded copyright information on the card face. But when I moved out, I did the ‘right thing’ and gave the deck back to my mother and bought my own, new Rider-Waite-Smith (still with the checked back). Unfortunately, this meant having those glossy finished cards. I don’t like that plastic-y, glossy feel. I’ve been working with, and trying to learn those cards in some capacity on and off again for about a decade. The images are so complex, and there is just so much in them that I have constantly found it difficult to get all of the image associations packed into those cards. The images almost feel like helpful hints or cheat codes to help me decipher the cards. But my approach, it always felt a bit too academic–a bit too forced. I wasn’t connecting with the cards, but I was learning.
Today my draw is the VIII of Wands. The only word that comes to mind is: spark. Wands typically feel higher-energy to me. Yesterday was the Ace of Wands, which I feel embodies that quality to the highest degree; the Ace is pure, unfiltered energy. The VIII is more like potential or direction. The spark has ignited and now the shift occurs. Shift in thinking in life in something. It feels like a card of movement and change. My life has movement and momentum. Rainbow lightning strikes the center of a wheel of wands. This lightning is the force to get this wheel spinning.
This is a hard card for me. The art doesn’t really connect for me. Or maybe it does and I’m just psyching myself out. The Ace of Wands seems to be a super high-energy card. It is a tool of possibility, a tool which can be used for change. The flowers on it are vibrantly alive, epitomizing the energy of this card–vibrantly alive. This seems to be a card of doing–of action. Maybe tomorrow I need to be productive. Or maybe something is going to happen which I need to be prepared for. Or maybe I will have the right energies coursing through me to be productive and active. There is no place for a passive Carrina this Tuesday (contrary to all expectation as I rarely get enough sleep on Monday nights).
My daily draw is the Mother of Swords. I’m using the Wild Unknown Tarot (https://www.thewildunknown.com). The suit swords have been following me my whole life. Oftentimes the 8, 9, and 10 of Swords. But recently, the mother has started following me around, too. I feel like she has something important to tell me, but I can’t figure out who or what she is. She seems a stern figure to me. Even-tempered, never somber or glad. She is collected–painfully controlled. She holds herself to herself and doesn’t let the walls between herself and others collapse. The sword symbolizes issues of spirit, and she supports herself on this. She controls herself but not necessarily the spiritual. She is detached. Her folded wings suggest stability; although she has the power to fly, she rests.